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Here’s what goes on in my head on the bad days:
I need to get out of bed…
It feels impossible to move, how can I make it through the day?
Why am I so tired?
I’m so lazy. The house is a mess and I’ve done nothing.
I can’t do it.
I’m weak.
I’m a horrible mother. Why can’t I enjoy playing with my kids?
Lunch? Oh God, I have to make lunch!
Maybe there’s something quick I can make.
Get up! Get up! I feel like I need a crowbar to pry myself off of the couch.
Where did I leave my keys?
Well, I got the kids to the pool. Do I have to swim?
I’m so cold. Why am I so cold?
Where did I leave my phone?
Oh my God! I can’t find anything!
What was it I needed to do today?
Maybe we can just watch TV today.
I have work to do. I’ll do it later…
Where did I leave my phone again?
Don’t touch me. Please don’t touch me.
OK, I can do this. I will just clean up one room at a time.
Why am I crying again? What’s wrong with me?
Dishes. The dishes need to be cleaned.
Do I have to make dinner? Maybe we can order a pizza.
I want to go back to bed.
Where did I put my glasses?
Thank God it’s bedtime!
My husband is snoring and I still can’t sleep.
I was so tired today. Why am I still awake?
While most people don’t understand my fibromyalgia because they can’t see anything physically wrong with me, it still wipes me out most days — on the bad days, it’s even worse. I am thankful for the days I have just a little bit of energy and can get things done without feeling like I’m trudging through a mud pit all day. Yes, fibromyalgia can make you feel like a sloth sometimes, but there are strategies to prevent or get through the rough days. To everyone else who struggles with fibro, I literally feel your pain. You are not alone.
